Unedited thoughts for tonight. Sorry, I am too tired.

Today was one of those days that could be marked as a great day. We had a lovely baby bash for one of the gals at church. It was a super hero theme. So much fun! I would definitely say it was one of the best baby showers I have ever attended.

It was good to forget for a few minutes how sad parts of this country are right now. It breaks my heart of the the distrust and hatred that floods the cities tonight. I have to remind myself that I am in the world but not of it. It is so hard for me to understand the revenge mentality that will kill someone because they have the same profession as someone else. I am all about justice, but targeting people who actually may be someone who cares and protects your family, I don't understand. Here is where I have to remind myself that my mentality comes from Christ. I cannot expect someone who doesn't believe the way I do to have the same mentality I do.
We live in a fallen world. A world where self is center. It breaks my heart thinking about the world when my children are grown. The spiral of downward morality will only get worse. It makes me sick thinking about it.
Thinking about this brings my thoughts back to the children of Isreal who were in bondage and asked how long will our suffering be. Don't get me wrong. I am not saying we are struggling like Isreal. Just referring to the feeling of desperation.
Then I think about Lot's family. The time is coming and I don't want to be Lot's wife looking back. I need to keep my mind clean from the hatred, immorality, self centeredness, and sin that is just "normal" in our society. Right now I live a pretty safe life with the Christian friends and family that surround me. I don't have to worry about wild parties with regrets or secrets. But what happens when we move? I pray I can be strong and can keep my eyes on Christ. I don't want to be Lot's wife longing for the riches and prestige of Sodom.

Chocolate hearts...

This time of year my will power over chocolate goes out the window. All the lovely chocolates out there just sitting there in their shiny packages. Not fair. 

I am overweight. The baby weight I had with my son has now tripled. Most of it is because I eat for comfort. Quantity is my problem. I have cut back in portions...a little, but not enough. Food should not be my source of comfort. I can enjoy a piece of chocolate and it won't bother my weight, but I don't do that. In fact, I just ate two pieces since I sat down. It's an addiction. Addictions are controlling.

I need to break from this addiction. So here is the battle plan.

1. For every piece of chocolate I eat, I must drink ten ounces of unscheduled water.

2. I will allow myself to enjoy a piece of sweets a day. NOT BINGE, but enjoy ONE piece.

3. I will work at praying or singing when the strong feelings of a binge come on.

4. I will pray continually for self control in the area of food. 

I hope verbalizing these will help me keep on track. Not only does candy add extra weight, caffeine in chocolate affects my Meniere's. 

Please keep me in your thoughts. 

So it has been a while since I have posted. Let's see...
I now have two littles. Jim is two and a half. Flara is four. Both were difficult labor and deliveries. It got scary fast when Jim got stuck and they had to do an emergency C-section.  We survived.
Now we are near my mom while my husband is overseas. Grandma is wonderful to have around.

Since it has been a while, I will not overload you with a long writing. We will catch up here in the next few weeks.